If you follow me on social media, you may have noticed I have gone from posting quite a lot, to posting nothing at all for over a month now… I needed, wanted, a break. I knew June was set to be a crazy busy month, with work and life, so this was something I felt I had to do, something had to give. Or maybe I just had to close off everything I could for a while. Being a creative is so different, I imagine anyway, from how it must have been back in the day. I can post something before, during and after I have created it, instantly, it has the potential to be seen my thousands of people. This is great, and it keeps me going when people are encouraging etc. But actually, it also adds a whole other element that sometimes I’m not sure is such a good thing. Art needs time, I need time. I need space, a whole lot of space, anyone that knows me well probably knows that too. I cope very well in my own company, but at the same time am very sociable and thrive of the energy of others. But to create my work, and sink into the zone, that blissful place where everything makes sense, I need time, and when life gets so busy and things are so up and down, I will draw back, go back into my shell where it feels safe. The problem is, I have enjoyed being in that space a little too much, I thought I would miss Instagram at least, but I really don’t think I have, it’s like it never happened, I adapted to the change extremely quickly. I will be back, and probably soon… I have a new group of illustrations I have been trying to finish – little preview above of one that is still under construction/ still doing alterations to, but you get the idea… – so will most likely be back when they are finished, and I feel ready to show you them…. LOTS more ideas I want to work on too, but as usual it is a question of time… something I tend to be very unrealistic about.
I still feel like I am trying to catch up with myself, and my work. Speeding along against time, knowing I will never beat it or even come close. And then I try to remind myself, that is not the way to live, there is no use in constantly aiming and clinging to the next goal, the next thing, the next event etc, we must live for today, now, whilst trying to sensibly plan a bit for the days ahead at the same time….
Since I have been offline, amongst other things I have crammed in: two weddings, one in an idyllic forest, one in the Scottish Highlands, a trip to Cologne to do an art market/ show, ate some German food, spoke some German, made some new friends, flew home again, been to a three day festival in Scotland, got rained on, got sunned on, danced, jumped in a waterfall and lazed around with my best friends, turned 29, started the process of moving house, taken lots of photos, read some new books, tried to learn some more French, yoga, running, more running, been to Edinburgh, came back, created some new work, looked over some old work, written down lotsss of new ideas, taken more photos, written some words, read some more words, done some more yoga, started to prepare/ organise for an upcoming art fair in London as well as a three week arts market in the Edinburgh festival…. so ye, it’s been a busy month and a bit!
Of course, no picture can sum all of that up… maybe I’ll share some more photos in another post… but for now, here is a random pic from Cologne.
I hope to post again soon with more words and images of what I have done and what I am still to do, as well as the usual random, but hopefully always engaging, musings.